Today is a good day. I made pumpkin soup for lunch, did the dishes, and have started some laundry. I know it doesn’t sound like very much, but compared to the last few months, it’s great. I actually feel like doing things. I really hope this feeling lasts for longer than a day. Thankfully Blake likes cleaning, but I feel bad that he works and cleans the house. Hes pushing me to exercise every morning, which will hopefully help me feel better. I’ve also paid much more attention to Felix today. Not that I let him cry all day or anything, but lately I just spread out his toys and have him entertain himself. I’ll try to teach him things and play with him for a bit, but I feel I have really been missing out on a lot of fun, bonding experiences because I can’t seem to get motivated to do anything. For example, although it’s fucking cold as shit out, it has been sunny and beautiful. I should be taking Felix for walks and hikes like we used to. Maybe I can get Blake to go to a trail with me tomorrow.
I feel like having a tree and Christmas decorations all over the house will cheer me up. I should have a dinner party…
At least for today, I feel pretty alive.
@2 days ago
#depression #good day
I have learned to love/hate the holiday season. I am so glad to be with my family on the west coast, but it makes me some-what homesick for New York. I met so many amazing people, and the holidays were some of the best times I’ve had. I can’t wait until we can afford to spend them there again. And to have a white Christmas! I never thought I would ever say there is a part of my heart left in New York, but I am so glad there is.
@1 week ago
Happy Thanksgiving, Tumblr!
So I couldn’t do the research depression study because I breastfeed. I kind of knew it would be that way. I was just so excited about it. So I’m going to call my clinic and tell them to assign me a random, male therapist. That way I don’t have to die of anxiety while lookong for the right doctor. I just really want help. I want to find a job and get more motivated and I need help before I can do that. I have been browsing Craigslist a lot for jobs, so there’s that…
@1 week ago
Four new Persona games?!? I think I just died.
@1 week ago
#persona #omgomgomg #SO EXCITED
Now I HAVE to buy a PS3 and Vita.